What triggered the doubt I felt (re Blog – When Doubt Finds Its Way In) in the first place was a dwindle in numbers of clients which led to my relinquishing the room I rented at the clinic I was working from. I had worked from the room for over a year but it just wasn’t making financial sense for me to keep it up.
Fear reared its head but I refused to feed it, as I know that things work out as they are meant to. An example of why I believe this is that while I was working from this room, I happened to have as many clients as I needed to cover most of the costs of the room. In one of my previous Blogs, I do recall asking the question 'How could I help contribute financially and still do what I feel guided to do?'.
Apparently the answer was to give up the room. After the last Sharman healing session I had, it became clear that there might be tough times ahead. Another big blockage to clear and then I will be through the worst of it. This is inline with the dream I had (Blog – The Significance of Dreams – Part 3). My dream indicated there was some challenges ahead but it also indicated that whatever came about, I would be safe and I could handle it.
So it is all falling into place. I understand that my clients falling off has happened so that I can spend the time I need to dig deep into self care so that I can get through this next lot of clearing. I mean, how beneficial to my clients am I if I do no take time to take care of myself? My clients need me at my best and I can only be that if I do the work I ask them to do. I just love how life takes such good care of me, the car breaking down, which gave me permission to rest, my clients falling away, which frees up space for my own healing.
It is such a magical process. I once felt unworthy to work on others because I felt I still had so much work to do on myself. I now know and understand that it is this very fact that makes me a great practitioner. This is not arrogance; this is a conscious understanding. I get what my clients are going through, so when I pass on information, I do so from a space of knowing. When I am through this next stage, I know that things will well and truly shift and I will be busier than ever.
I feel both excited and scared at the same time. Although deep down I know there is nothing to be scared of. Fear has controlled me most of my life and the only way for me to finally be free of it is to stare it down and face whatever presents. I just need to remember my dream and know that I will be fine no matter what. We are never given more than we can handle.
I am sure doubt will always try to get in, but I am sure as I have worked through this lot, that I will always find my way through it and so will you.
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