I am not sure why, but prayer is a little different from intention for me. I usually put out a prayer when I feel overwhelmed or uncertain, when I need help.
I have experienced a lot in the way of personal growth and generally I have become quite good at working out what needs to be done when something comes up. This is not always the case and this I think, is part of growth itself, it is infinite. No matter where you are on your personal journey or life, there is always a next step or something else that needs working through.
Recently I was feeling flat. There was no real reason for this, I was in a great mood, I was keeping up with all that was important to me, so when I started to notice feeling lethargic and unmotivated, I was quite surprised. I am all about moving, whether that be nurturing relationships, putting effort into my business, working on the house or in the garden, spending time with my kids, there is always something.
At first I thought, just let it be and it will pass. Then days turned into weeks and it was obviously playing on me. I have some serious goals for myself and my life and sitting around was not going to do anything to bring these dreams to be.
It came to a head when I had done a number of things to shift this feeling myself and nothing was working. So I sat myself down with my journal and started penning it out. I surrendered everything that was on my mind to God. Sometimes I say God, sometimes the Universe, the truth is I have no idea what the force is that is there to help, support, love, guide, nurture. I just know it is there and is very much working for and with me.
So I poured it all out. I had no idea all these things were worrying me. It all came about because I had in fact been managing everything so well. It was obviously having an effect and I had run out of steam to carry on. After pouring out all my worries, I set about asking God for everything I needed. I think I asked God to bless each part of me, that is the Karina me, the mother me, the friend me, the daughter me, the gardener me, the carer me, the cleaner me, the writer me, the Neuro-Trainer me, (I could probably go on) so that I could continue to be all that I desired to be.
Somehow after that journal entry, I knew what was wrong and I knew what I had to do to sort it out. I had obviously been pushing too hard and I needed to pull back a bit. I cancelled an upcoming gathering and relaxed into the idea that I just needed to set some boundaries and recuperate. I didn't need to do everything on my own.
I kid you not, the very next day, two, not one, but two of my clients called up to say they had to cancel their appointments for the week and take a break for a while. The old me would have been devastated but I knew without a doubt in my mind that this is what needed to happen for both my client’s sakes and my own. It is really quite amazing. I just knew that everything was working out the way it needed to at that moment in time. I trust that my clients will come back when and if they need and I look forward to that time. In the mean time, I took the presented opportunity to take care of myself so that I can be all that I want to be for the people in my life, including my clients.
I took a day to do some writing, I saw a client and I did a little weeding. I took it very easy but it was a productive day. Much better than the procrastination slump I had been in for the previous week or so. The next day was even better with my creativity returning and my having a very clear understanding about what had transpired and what I needed to do.
Never underestimate a good old conversation with God, the Universe, Mother Nature, whatever the energy is that you feel a connection to. Pour it all out, be open, honest and keep it real. Ask for everything you need to keep moving forward, then take note of your surroundings, watch out for signs and indications that your prayers have been heard and answered. Do it again and again and before long you will trust in it and will relax into life and love it for all it is. You are not alone.
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